Right where you want me to be

Our morning was so incredibly sweet.

I was bleeding really badly so I woke up at 4.50am just to sit in a chair and weep. I had to wash everything I stained and everything made me so frustrated that I refused to get back in bed. I waited for him to wake up instead.

He rarely wakes up without me. I'll always be the one nudging him awake on weekends or the one still dead asleep on weekdays. But today, for the first time, I wasn't beside him. Maybe that's why he was so quick to jump for the alarm and rush into the kitchen looking for me.

He looked at my newly-washed pants and acknowledged my pain adorably, patting my head then tapping my butt, lightly directing me back into the room.

I got dressed while waiting for him and it wasn't much but he let out this long wow when he saw me, reaching out to sniff my hair and I knew no cramp in the world can ever distract me from the happiness this silly man gives me.

I really am the luckiest thing.









I ordinarily do not take progress photos, preferring to brag only when I'm there.

But today's 9-minute impromptu yoga session was wonderfully productive. I felt confident in my body after successfully flowing into a crooked birds of paradise and a tripod headstand and so attempted to condition my scorpion.

And to be fair, it did feel like it was working. My arms were fired up but the mental fear of having my hips over my head was screaming and I came down, but not before slowly familiarizing myself with the position.

My handstands were bad too and I didn't know why till I watched the video. I was way too far from the wall. I also had a small phobia of collapsing after my sister let me fall when I was in the middle of a handstand. But it's okay, progress takes time.

I am the proudest of my headstand. While I still cannot flow into it, I twisted the routine by taking a right side up route (I started with both legs on the right wall) and when I finally took them both off the back wall, I held for a split second.

And to think, this session started only because I was bloody cold in office and my cramps were pounding so hard at me that I finally snapped and went YOU WANT PAIN, I'LL SHOW YOU PAIN and hence the yoga.

All good things start with yoga.