I was actually sure I got my forearm stand balance two days back, since I could kick off and hover. I preferred that over headstand, the bane of my existence. So I tried the former but my back hurt so bad I had to stop.
My brother was supposed to lift me into a headstand but halfway through, he got distracted looking at the door so I kicked off into nothing, but I found the balance point. Subsequently, I tried again and this time, the phone rang so he just walked away to it LOL.
But YAY I DID IT.
It was so wonderfully easy after that. I could control how long I wanted to stay in the air, which is, to me, the fundamental of any inversion. Once I had that nailed down, I could do my splits and attempt 90 deg knee splits. But the latter wasn't that stable.
Handstands, you're next!
Lunch with the best :)
Baby was rolling because he just got his pay so we went for a happy meal! This is week 7 of us promising to diet 'tomorrow'. As you can tell, we are out of control!
He was so ridiculously adorable.
He was very excited about the IT fair and was sure everyone around him was too, and to prove it, he happily shouted YAY! right before we entered, to drive home the point that no one would care. But 90% he did it because he really was that excited hahaha.
I think he's very daddy. Not daddy material. Just very daddy. I'd get lost in the exhibit and he'd keep calling me and quickly locate me, then meet me and tell me not to run around while gripping my hand tightly. Is that sexy or do I have daddy issues?! Christ.
I finally bought my ASUS transformer! I was terrified it would be a waste of money but as long as I am sure I'm heading to Miami solo and taking the long train trip, then this should pay for itself in time. Fingers crossed!
We almost had a fight on the way home.
We were discussing how my potential degree would shatter my plans and our financial stability right now.
We are in a bit of a rut because right now, our combined earning power doesn't qualify us for any grant at all so he's asking I go further my studies first so that we'd qualify, but then I'm not keen on relinquishing my newly-promoted position so I'm stuck in a corner.
I was initially pissed as fuck because he seemed unwilling to provide for me for the full period of my degree. If you know me, you'd know I'm fiercely independent and actively generous. I cannot accept money from anyone. And I like lavishing gifts on family and my boyfriend.
Which is why I cannot be far-sighted enough to tell myself I need the Birmingham degree and risk my current salary especially in view of such a shit economy. But even if I am, my eventual dream is nowhere close to needing that qualification. But Gabriel couldn't understand.
Not till I told him the context of my dream.
He listened to me go on.
And on.
And smiled, kissed my forehead, and said simply, "You can do it. We'll do it together."
And I started crying.
He held me and kept telling me how everything was feasible and I should give it a go. I told him I wanted it to be the final middle finger I can show to everyone who slighted me in this long writing career. And he smiled and God, how did I get so lucky?
There's truly nothing more wonderful than someone you love having absolute trust in you.
And for that, I will not fail.
I can't fail.
Not me.
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