What separates you from the rest

Is how constantly scared I am of you leaving me.

Yes, it is unhealthy but I can't help it. I am constantly hyper-aware of how acutely happy you make me. It is a happiness degree that no one else, by far, has come close to matching. You are the most amazing thing, and I love you more than life.

I've tried to dissect our relationship and you, to see what it is that makes you so unbelievably lovable to me. And each time I think I have it figured, you go and do something so wonderfully sweet that I lose count again.

There was the day where I woke up beside you in the foulest of moods. You didn't do anything wrong. I was just in a bad mood and I broke your furniture and tried to start a fight with you and you just took it in and let me cool down in your bed. I was crying and crying uncontrollably and you kept hugging and kissing and patting me. And you said all the funniest things and the most offensive jokes and I couldn't be sad anymore.

There was the day where you went to the kitchen where I was and lovingly tried to hug me from behind while tugging at my shorts. And I let you in and you joined me deeply, but midway I started crying and I ran from you into the room. And you, you adorable you, continued the iced milo I was making and came into the room, shorts and drink in hand, comforting me and vowing to stay away from my body if it makes me happy, all the while offering me the iced milo animatedly.

There was the day where you wanted to eat coffeeshop food but I pouted a little and looked at Popeyes and you smiled genially and said you have a Popeyes craving too, even though just minutes ago you said you wanted coffeeshop. You snuck away midway our meal, telling me you had to go buy cigarettes. And before I left you for class, you happily told me to check my bag for a cookie that I didn't even realize you put in till your mention.

And these moments, these moments were all in one day.

In a day, I can fall in love with you again and again, time and time over. Imagine how it is like to be me, enjoying you every single day since 3 January. The memories you gave me are indomitable and untouchable. I will love all of them forever.

And I will love you forever too.

Happy 291 days, my perfect better half.