The stress of my job's jeopardy had put me over the edge. I binged over the weekend, clocking in a disastrous 3k calories. My worries ate at me and hence, I ate on chocolatey goodness. Dammit Nicole.
I didn't expect to lose this job so soon. It is the best job I could ever ask for. This job pushed me to be a better woman - taking up pole, yoga, all that - solely because I wanted to grow together with the brand. And the saddest part of it all is that I'm not even sure if my job's end is near.
I feel like I've lost my identity when I lost this job.
And so I clench desperately on what's left - my deteriorating physique.
My stomach is lackluster.
But I am very pleased with my arms. I have very untoned arms. It was a comment about my arms from Gabriel that made me start this weight loss campaign in the first place. But now they look so.. strong. And faintly muscular.
Ran to my baby after work and excitedly opened his door to see him lost in Dota. But he managed to pry himself away long enough (because his chief wanted to watch an 8pm show LOL so no Dota till it ends) and the rest of the night was him re-iterating how strongly he believed in me.
He wanted to continue dotaing after his chief came back exactly at 10pm after his show but didn't want to upset me so he kept asking for my permission and making this sad whimper. And he was so adorable I couldn't say no.
"Okay one round!"
(whimpers)
"Okay two rounds."
"Yay you're the best baby!"
"But if you win in the first round then no more."
(whimper and buries face in blanket and whines)
"Then I have to lose!!! If not no second round!!!!"
Goddammit why you gotta be so cute.
So he happily finished his games (first losing then losing sigh) while I finished Star Wars. And my fucking god I almost cried at the final part where Anakin joins the Force Ghosts. Now I can't wait for the newest one!
Fell asleep to him pretend proposing ♥
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