Excerpt from rica's blog:

 It's funny how our lives can change within seconds. When your phone vibrates and your heart stops. Taking a quick look at the message preview, and your heart just sinks. The message that signifies the end of everything, the end of what you may call being "genuinely happy". Within seconds, you realize that you're never seeing that person again. You'll never hear him say his usual phrases again. That was the very last time he hugged you, kissed you, sent you the last goodnight text. Within seconds, everything has to be left behind. The way they cuddled in bed watching scary videos, the way she loved staring into his eyes, the way she watched him hug his favourite pillow to sleep. All that can NEVER happen anymore.

 I teared reading this.

A breakup is a last minute cruise wrap up. You are having the time of your life in this beautiful place. You're with the most perfect person in the world. You've spent so much time here. Everything you love, everything you are is here.

But suddenly an immovable iceberg comes to sight, and you're forced to go. You have no time. You have to leave everything. Your ship is collapsing, you can't stay anymore. Everything you love is going to go down, and there's nothing you can do about it.

You hitch a lifeboat and save yourself and watch your life slowly sink before you. There's nothing left. Only your memories. Memories that'll make you smile before ripping that temporary comfort from you, throwing you back again into irreversible despair.

I wish I never left my cruise.

Oh well so anyway, tonight was zirca:







Went with kiantat, tristal, nic and a whole bunch of people whose names I've entirely forgotten. So basically just spent it very tipsy at first then very sober after. This random club dude wrote "hey I just met you" and everything onto a little phone for me hahaha. Would've been a not too bad a night, except that I saw you.

I wish coincidence could skip us.

Well anyway, since my mood got ruined, decided to leave early with kiantat and it was a good, simple nr3 bus trip home. Took 1 hour longer than usual but at least our wallets thanked us profusely.

Couldn't sleep so stayed up drawing and coloring and all sorts of things the dismissed does. I only wish I had poly so I can justify whiling my time away on my canvas during holidays. I probably should work soon.

Slept badly.