But all in all, I'll probably get my answer by the 4th of July. I will celebrate my future with the U S and A! I'll have something to come back to either way so I shall stay positive!
Wound up a whole hour ahead of schedule so I ordered my pretentious hot chocolate and binge-watched House of Cards while waiting for April and Mintao. WHAT A NICE CHANGE OF PACE! I bloody love being early and prepared.
I am still ashamed to take selfies in public.
This is not going to fly in New York. If I don't shamelessly take these, then no one's going to do it for me! Come on Nicole, after the first three minutes of laughing at you, no one is going to remember.
To stress how serious I am about phototaking in New York: I actually bought a portable iPhone external flash and a 1.30cm freestanding iPhone tripod. Shit is serious - I will not let my solo trip go to photographic shame.
I didn't know a $300 ring was that ridiculous.
Discussed this again with them and when they found out Gabriel originally intended to use the $180 to re-propose, they made a show of shock phase 1. When I told them I flipped at him and asked for a $300 ring instead, they went all out for shock phase 2.
"$300?! That's not even double of your current ring's cost!"
"Take out the ring now! Throw it in the river!"
LOL my dramatic friends.
We caught up over everything except what's going on in their actual lives because they're ALWAYS cryptic like that. April is temporarily un-passionate about everything in life while Mintao is fine being a good-for-something haha.
Dinner with the Ngee Ann folks!
Honestly did not expect much of them when Tristal asked to meet. I added on that it would be nice since I'm flying off and lo and behold, everyone came! My God this has got to be the first time since 2013 that we're in full attendance.
I missed this group. I know we used to drink a fair bit (fine, more than a fair bit) but we've evolved so much since then. Tony kept insisting this is the first healthy gathering we had but I'm pretty sure everything on my table was dirty and/ or under-cooked lol.
Today was the loveliest day, seeing so many people I care about at once. It was made all the lovelier when Gabriel suddenly whatsapped about how envious he was of his dad-colleagues with their little girls. He truly is the most dad-ready man I've ever dated.
Also, I got to come home to my parents contently watching The Last Ship with my laptop snugly plugged into the television, without my help at all! Now I can fly in peace knowing they won't be watching prime-time crap on channel 8 while I'm gone!
I'm a lucky person. I truly am.
I covet the position I interviewed for today. To own that position, on top of freelancing for my current two magazines (unless they'd want me to stop, in which case I'd drop it like it's hot), would mean a sharp peak salary-wise. I would be comfortable for a lot of things. I'd be set financially.
But at the same time, I'll be happy to be go back to studying too. I would be happy to study what I love while I work on monetizing my content and shaping the voice of Minicolee as a brand. I would still have my freelancing magazines. I could still chase my fitness goals.
Both routes are routes that are powerfully enriching in their own ways. I need not be too upset for losing either one. The idea of not having it all annoys me to no end but I have to learn to make peace. I know my big picture. I will rise out of my social class and build a better life for myself.
I've been extraordinarily blessed so far with equal parts opportunity and the most supportive family (+ pre-fiance) I could ask for.
I could not want for more.
But I will never settle for less.
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