Circa 2012, I got sucked into a self-destructive whirlwind when I lost the love of my life and, believing that the rest of my days no longer have meaning, I swept up and destroyed everyone in my path. There are parts of me that will carry guilt forever, that will never truly be happy again.
But you are my eye in a hurricane.
And bit by bit, you put me back together.
You took all my fears of being in a relationship and cast them away, pulling me to dance with you in the strangest of places, from your living room to the esplanade -- god you can be so wonderful.
You took all my insecurities and starved them out of my skin, stroking my hair and cuddling me lovingly when you know I've had a shit day at work or when I simply needed your assurance.
You took all my sadness and brought them onto your own shoulders, understanding me and my ever changing moods, always coming to me eventually when you know I need you.
But with this intoxicating happiness comes a maniacal sadness too. It is in every time you mention a break, every time you say something cruel, and every time you give up on me.
But it is worth it, it is worth it all.
I don't know how to lose you.
And I hope I never do.
You took all my fears of being in a relationship and cast them away, pulling me to dance with you in the strangest of places, from your living room to the esplanade -- god you can be so wonderful.
You took all my insecurities and starved them out of my skin, stroking my hair and cuddling me lovingly when you know I've had a shit day at work or when I simply needed your assurance.
You took all my sadness and brought them onto your own shoulders, understanding me and my ever changing moods, always coming to me eventually when you know I need you.
But with this intoxicating happiness comes a maniacal sadness too. It is in every time you mention a break, every time you say something cruel, and every time you give up on me.
But it is worth it, it is worth it all.
I don't know how to lose you.
And I hope I never do.
Today I attended my first ever sports event!
The atmosphere was electrifying. I was almost late but my magic pass get me everywhere! Sprinted through the security and managed to make it for joseph schooling's 4x100m medley, with time to spare!
I watched the women's 4x100m medley too by accident. But the air was truly charged when the men's team came out. My god and did the crowd go wild at the mention of joseph schooling.
Seeing them live made me scream at every turn. I screamed at the start, at the first mark, at the passing, at the end, at the announcement, oh my god I would've screamed at even the breaths of joseph schooling.
What a great fucking patriotic night!
I watched the women's 4x100m medley too by accident. But the air was truly charged when the men's team came out. My god and did the crowd go wild at the mention of joseph schooling.
Seeing them live made me scream at every turn. I screamed at the start, at the first mark, at the passing, at the end, at the announcement, oh my god I would've screamed at even the breaths of joseph schooling.
What a great fucking patriotic night!
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