Kbox after a long long time.



My sister was really annoyed by me.

I kept falling with these heels and she's annoyed that I can't walk by myself but I NEED PRACTICE WEARING IT and this is not helping. I'm pretty sure I'm the queen of heels, it's just designed badly.

Was just really not used to singing again and spent the time just cheering for my sister's korean songs hahah. Girl can sing korean man. I think I'm done with sad chinese songs. I can't force myself to be sad anymore.



Left for home in a bit.

I cannot explain this indifference I feel. Usually I play out scenes of my relationships' failure or just think about my sadder love experience to break my voice into giving depth to my songs but today, I felt nothing. Just plain, cold indifference.

I had a very horrid dream earlier on in the day. I dreamt that I was a true blue psychotic. I could no longer feel for anyone nor anything, all I was doing was living in the past and dreaming of a future and people who loved me kept trying to save me, but like a drinker I let myself go instead.

I feel so incapable.