"When we met I was wrecked, blasted and damned, and I am slowly pulling myself together because I can see that you're a human being and I would like to be one too."

— Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveller's Wife

I finished this book last night.

Stayed up especially so I'll finish it, pretty much teared all the way through the ending. Books like these really grow you as a person. Reminds you that the world is much bigger yet smaller than it seems. Much bigger because there's so much more to be hungry for -- cultures and languages and music and beauty. Much smaller because there's so little that can be important and treasured forever -- family, friends, lovers.

I think I have an addiction to beauty and sadness, and the picturesque ending of them combined.

Anyway, today was my unofficial day off school!
And of course I spent it with my new boyfriend/ girlfriend Hazel Khoo.

Was asleep when hazel reached bpp so the angry little girl decided to punish me by insisting I should buy her these $1 treats in a cup. So I did la, I've been spending mindlessly on food with friends man. So anyway.



This is me being bored out of my damn mind.

I had 1 cup and 2 sticks and she was going on about things I either was bored with or I wanted to annoy her or something but I got serious about balancing the cup and finally did it by breaking one of the sticks hahaha VICTORY!















I love this series of photos.

It's so colorful and flowery and she was in a dress and I was in a frock and I had a great weekend to look forward to and I generally love spending time with hazel so the pictures all turned out so pretty and vibrant!

Stupid girl had to buy groceries before our shopping so she ended up with a lot of bags and because she's a princess, I carried everything for her while she bounced around and took forever shopping for things SHE'LL NEVER NEED!

By the 2nd hour I was crying into our trolley and begging God for mercy and demanding from hazel to know am I going to die here waiting for her to be done and she cruelly laughed at me and took ANOTHER DAMNED HOUR IN DAISO.

Women.



And my favourite shot of the day :)

Spent the later part of the night at my place with my guitar then with my nail polish then on polaroids and neoprints and god girls are really good at wasting time. Sent her home because I've attained the holy level of hazelguard.

Saw an old man slowly walking with a lot of stuff and asked him if he needed help in uncertain hokkien. He responded in very fluent English, saying it's okay, he's very near home and thank you very much, what's my name, where do I live, how can I jog so late (it was 11.30pm). Interesting conversation.

Jogged home thinking about nothing in particular.

Home was slightly good for a bit till my baby brother had a little heart quickening issue and my parents and him left for the hospital, leaving me desperately worried and MAD WITH FURY at the clinic who gave him heart starter medicine knn I will fucking tear the place down at the expense of my future.

Felt unreasonably better after skyping with J and now, I shall go read my daily dose of enlightenment then go do up birthday gifts and cards then go spend a little time recalling my guitar and start on my book.

Be fine baby brother :(