I've been on a very vulgar-free streak but ohhh this morning my perfect combo got ruined thanks to a quick, forgetful text message. Let me get this clear as if it's not fucking in your face already.
I'M THE BEST DAMNED FRIEND YOU CAN FIND IN THIS UNIVERSE.
Do you know why? Because I believe fanatically in loyalty. Loyalty to your friends, your family, people who mean something to you, and of all, loyal to people who were there for you, just once is enough.
Which is why friends and cousins can cut me off at random periods of time and when they come back, I am the one instead who desperately and quickly tries to pull back the broken bridges Time has happily ravaged through.
No effort on your side girls. Just come into my life and make a small effort to stay and I'll be there for you in a heartbeat.
A friend told me today that you only need one best friend, and I think my one best friend is really Hazel.
The only one who actually reciprocates and genuinely cares when I get into the constant trouble I have. The only one I'd probably do a quick jail term for for say, burning the face of whoever dares to disrespect her in the future.
It gets more and more clear that into the slower days of my 19 years, I'm lording my friends over everyone. I could cancel on anyone but family for them. My guy friends and boyfriends especially. I love you all equally but they are really my oxygen.
On one hand I'd name Hazel, Htate, Yinghui, Syahirah and Siewsia as people I'd really give the world for. And I wish with all of my heart that I had every single one of the rest of my girls back.
I'm too lazy to go on.
Also:
“I love no one but you, I have discovered, but you are far away and I am here alone. Then this is my life and maybe, however unlikely, I’ll find my way back there. Or maybe, one day, I’ll settle for second best. And on that same day, hell will freeze over, the sun will burn out and the stars will fall from the sky.” — Lemony Snicket
Following a book-spiration tumblr is Decision of the Year 2012.
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