I dreamt of you.

I woke up at 5am paranoid of all the noises I heard outside my window.I fell back asleep and I dreamt that I had you back. I dreamt that I tried and it worked and we worked and I was yours again.

Then I woke up hating myself and wondering what the fuck am I doing with my life.

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, Is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little

Not just a little.

I sound like a very miserable person but I really, really am not.





Outfit of the day.

Overslept today and had a terrible tirade from dad and I wanted to murder. But april and su an found my usb so I was a very happy girl afterwards. Also tuition with the twins made me happy so day was saved.

Today was spent in a bad daze. Feels like I'm doing everything but what I really want to do and feels like I'm deliberately avoiding it to save myself heartache but come what may, I deserve it.

Day ended with this!:



Am glad me and my sister's efforts went somewhere :)