I am a mass of contradictions.

My thoughts will confuse you.
My thoughts will not make sense.
My thoughts will be absolute.

My thoughts will ruin me.
My thoughts will be clarity.
My thoughts will constantly change.

I cannot say much.

I've been through experiences. And I've learnt to see all of them positively. I talk about my past. I see them as what made me. I find something to learn from every single fall. I am stronger than everything that's ever tried to break me. I want to be more.

I wish I could change the past, but only an aspect of it.
But that remains mine to know.

I am the sum of everything that's ever happened to me. I am alive with passion and ruin and clarity and happiness and sadness and hope and suicide. I am the protagonist of my own story. I am the crux.

But I feel so small all the time.

Sidenote: what a long time since I've taken time out of my family and friends for x.