I learnt that I need upper pills to write essays. It is fascinating how my skin crawls when I take them, but how my mind sprints the whole time. I finished a 1000 word, fully research-based essay in under 3 hours. Such is the potency of my pills and the lack of potency of my unmotivated self.
I learnt that I can, always, eventually, move on. Weeks of leaving this website's thumbnail on my homescreen has numbed me to the picture I once held dear. I am finally victorious!
I learnt that I can force my emotions back down my throat and into my abyss of a soul. I've been blessed with a great assistance in my attempt to get over aforementioned misery and now that the assistance has departed, I am left feeling initially lost, but now empowered to never be in this place again.
Above all,
I learnt that my mind is my weapon and I must never stop sharpening it.
I learnt that my emotions are meant for my enjoyment; I must learn to control them, to use them, to ensure it is only used for me, not against me.
What a transformational 3.5 months.
What comes next?
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