This is one of the few photos that makes me geninuely smile because I'm wearing a legit cap with a legit baseball tee and a legit step-plug stud and a legit fringe wave and legit sparkly eyes.

God I look fantastic.

I fucking love my boots.

And as you can(not) see, my attempt to look fierce heavily backfired and I instead look very hungry and like a cougar here. But look at my fishscale belt and bag and boots and YOU KNOW I DON'T CARE.

Does my vanity know any bounds?

NO!

Cheap thrills until cannot eh Nicole can you grow up.

#20factsaboutme: 

 1. This is how I look without my lenses.
2. I am mini and portable.
3. I tend to break out in song and dance in public #nosocialshame
4. I like strange (or) sad movies.
5. I have a phobia of deep water depths.
6. I can't sleep without this piece of my baby bolster cloth.
7. I run (at least) 7km weekly.
8. I devour books faster than I devour xiaolongbaos.
9. I have two tattoos, a tongue and a navel piercing.
10. I have very stupid innuendos in my head all the time.
11. I can climb any tall structure because great heights are very fun to me.
12. I love my family and friends.
13. I like breaking stuff and throwing stuff away.
14. I played the 3rd trumpet in my sec-school band.
15. I cannot drink for nuts.
16. I have a very fast obsession turnover rate - love it today, hate it tomorrow.
17. I have an insane collection of My Melody merchandise and Pokemon figurines.
18. I had Kawasaki syndrome when I was two.
19. I have my own set of noises and sounds that my ex boyfriend/ friends understand.
20. I want a psychoactive and recreational drug.

Whoooosh that's another 20 more useless facts you didn't need to know about!

Day and night.

Baby brother does not care for us and cares more for pizza.

Present spam for the baby brother this year yay!

Happy birthday to the little boy whose new height I cannot accept!

VERY PRODUCTIVE SESSION AT NUS OH HO HO HO I AM A STUDENT THERE FEAR ME.

I hate my non-graduate life.

Today I shared my cardigan with a friend then cheated on her with another friend after hehe.

Also I have amazing taste in clothes.

The hair color, NOT A BIG FAN.

That stripe though.

Treated my grandma, dad, mum and baby brother to a meal and I AM NOW DA BROKE BITCH.

You cannot see this, but it was study session afterwards and me being me, I managed to find a way to make it a zhng-my-tumbler session.

I am a wealth of knowledge less, and a catty tumbler more.

My skies are so very gray.

The wound of you leaving me is as fresh as yesterday. I decided again to look at our album.

And I saw a photo of your back view.

-

It was our fancy date.

I didn't know where we were going.

But we were at Central.

And you looked so wonderful.

You went to check the bus timing.

And you looked so wonderful.

I told you to pose because I wanted a photo.

And you looked so wonderful.



You cuffed your pants the way I liked them.

You wore a fancy new blazer we ordered together.

You looked incredible.

And for the rest of the day, I took more photos of you than I ever did again.

-

Here I am.

10 months too late.

I remember how I felt nothing when you walked out of my flat. I closed the door and I moved on packing for my flea the next day. You broke and you called me the next day still, forgetting all the pain I put you through.

And I ignored that too.

-


2 months ago, I gathered everything I had and texted you.

And it was such a lovely conversation.

We caught up and you were funny and witty and you didn't change - your typing stayed the same, your lousy shortcuts stayed the same, you stayed the same (or maybe, I don't know).

My happiest recollection is you excitedly telling me (initiatively!) that your pc has reached you finally. And you were excited to start it up and get to customizing it in the sexy, sexy way only you know how.

But it died down. And I didn't know how to revive it.

-

Every night before I sleep.

Every morning when I wake.

I wonder why am I even bothering with this life.

The thought that I, Nicole, could be ruined forever by you.

Haunts me.

Kills me.

Makes me cry in my sleep.

I remember dequalinium.

I remember your dreams of us.

I remember your stupid 2 tooth smile.

I remember everything.

I remember everything.

I remember everything.

Where are you tonight?

Are you well?

Have you been eating okay?

Did you manage to start up your pc?

How was your trip?

Is army being kind to you?

Can I see you?

Please?

-

How extremely sad it is that I feel all these inside me burning me to my core but all I'm capable of showing my family and friends are a happy face and a pair of dancey feet.

Rescue me.

Finally caught up with the best friend!

How do I tell you that I love your company, but that's all I can ever love?

Happy birthday to me.

Celebrated with the family!

Sober.



Drunk.



Thanks to the greatest 8 months friends ever :*

Lunch with the family!

So incredibly touched by the Pandora my friends got me when I was expecting nothing at all this year from them. I was even betting against them remembering it but ahhh so touched I wanna cry,

Dear goddd I love you guys.

Thank you, I love you all so so so much.

Visit to the grandma!

Things I try to do daily: 

Force my poor friends into dim sum all day every day any day.

So my dad decided to go bird catching today.

So my uncle went fishing.

Truly blessed for the people who make me happy everyday.