I JUST ERASED EVERYTHING I WROTE WHY LEH WHY.

BECAUSE MY FICKLE MINDED BRAIN DECIDED THOSE WERE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY BLOG BUT STRANGELY THIS ILL-TIMED RANT IS! DAMMIT BRAIN.

"Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?"

"Once you've had a taste of her you'll never be the same
Yeah, she'll make you go insane"

These two songs are made for each other.

I love the weird mix of the songs on my phone. My chinese songs teach me to be a gentle soft girl who's aka a pushover and my english songs want me to be wild and uninhibited and slap anyone I please.

Also I am replaying "I'll make a man out of you" and now I feel like climbing a tree.

Bye bye erdinger :(

My total sales must have exceeded 30 boxes, so that's over 150 bottles I've sold in just 8 hours. Also that means I am going to make at least 70 drinkers very happy and tipsy and very prone to bad decisions.

I am proud to be a part of an invented Oktoberfest and as the reigning Queen of Bad Decisions, it is also with great pride I say I am, in the weakest link, happily responsible for an increase in my reign's division.





This is random but I'm pretty sure my version of Moves like Jagger is wrong z.

Dinner with junwei who called dips on my last beer and proceeded to thank me with cheap milo and bad theories. Then a very short but happy nonsense library/ diary/ food adventure with hweechen :)

From this job, I have acquired the uncanny ability to spot a drinker and how to convince people that quote tipsy is a state you should be consistently in unquote. Also I have learnt that white beer is made from rice. Also that people buy from me because I look sad and like I will crumble and die if they don't. YES.

Added into my List of Things I Can Do To People skills.

Today I am an Erdinger beer girl heh heh heh.







Look at my cute little booth hahah.

It was a ugly mess at first then the manager came to throw his fat weight around and forced me to get it together. And I was raging pissed at first then IT LOOKED SO MUCH CUTER AFTER HE GEHGAO'ED SO YAY NO MORE ANGER!

I had whole day access to an inexhaustible beer supply and all I drank was a small shot of it and my face sort of cringed and cramped and I realized I hate alcohol and I swore I'll never try beer again.

Most of my customers kept telling to me drink because they were entertained convincing what seems to be an underage girl drink hahah. Apparently erdinger is good beer and it's a good start-off, BUT STILL NO.

Pretty sure one of the guys who bought a carton from me was just buying to support me. Since he's never had erdinger and his exact words were "okay la shall support you and buy one" hahah.

I should demand comission man.

Today was a mad rush for jobs everywhere.

Had to report to hazel's EVEN THOUGH she owes me money AND clothes AND my way overload bag. Despite all said owings, she demanded I buy 2 onions for her for fun. ATROCIOUS WOMAN.

But heh heh I learnt how to cook and prepare food and how a ukulele is supposed to sound like and helped her clean up because she abuses my OCD and it was fun eventually heh.

Then started interviewing at assorted places and now I feel SUPER ACCOMPLISHED. Life has a meaning now. To ace SIM's management course and to continue getting lazy high-paying jobs like my current few!

Dinner with yuanfeng and it's been long since I've seen the dude man. I may have over-sold hazel to him but it's cool, hopefully they do meet and it's love at first sight then I don't need to be hazel's boyfriend anymore WOO.

I am excited about my daytime life finally.



Can someone please tell me where I can submit this adorable photo to Nickelodean so that (I am mid sentence and casually looking up to the tv screen. Now I see it heh heh) NEVERMIND THANKS!

Hope he wins yay!

MY MUM IS AN ANGEL.



This makes me happier than anything in the world.

Today is my sidney sheldon day. I forgot how it went but it should be me obsessed with my book and reading it then stopping then reading because I want to relish and extend the time I get with it.

I think I can stop clubbing for any number of months as long as my mum keeps bribing my social nightlife with sidney sheldon. A book for every month whose nights I stay home. ON LA I'LL NEGOTIATE TOMORROW.

My probation looks a lot more tolerable now WOOHOO.

I like my sheer pinstripe shirt matching with my ocean blue nails & black havaianas going in perfect harmony with my black toenails. Consistency by surprise, and look at the pretty outcome!





Today was a laze at home day, but now known as "The Day Nicole Had An Epiphany".

I am going to lose 5kg, I am going to apply to SIM. I am going to get random jobs. I am going to extend my social circle. I am going to go revive my old friends. I am going to bond with my family. I am going to save the world. And of all, I am going to start painting again.

Goodbye favourite watch.







I searched for your twitter.

I found everything I was supposed to find. The misery, the happy, the indifferent. I wonder once in a while if your misery is ever over me. But I hope not. I do so desperately want you happy.

So it's a new day, hopefully today will be the day I properly sit down and think of SEED or SIM for my future. I'm pretty sure I love kids and I want to do a course related to them but I'm hungry for a much bigger future, something that only business can provide me I guess.

I need to find a way to rid myself of all these pre-bed guilt I feel. It's not making anything better and I feel nothing again in the morning but this vicious guilt-immunity-guilt cycle is really fucking with me.

I remember what you wore on the first day 
You came into my life and I thought 
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

It was.