Today was a very happy day!

Spent my morning jogging with my sister for a bit and whoa she is in better shape than I expected. All the years of chasing the elusive 975 paid off. And I'm so crazily out of shape hahaha. I hope we make a habit out of this.

Finally caught up with siewsia!

I miss her so terribly and I'm really terrified of this drift and I think I'll most probably be ready to head to church next saturday just to spend more time with her. :( But we caught up and awww I still love her very much.





Spent the next half of the day out with my family in my ridiculously bright mini dress and ridiculously kiddy bracelet hahah but I love it.

My dad and mum are adorableee. We ate at this new Kungfu Paradise place and they're so different in how they conduct themselves hahah. And my baby brother is just a crybaby. And my sister has a lot of cute ideas!

Spent the better half of my night drinking with this woman. Blooie's is getting pricey so I think this will probably be the last time we'll be here but still! Good night good night!

This must be the 1st time I'm single with hazel hahah.

Thank you whoever for all the angels in my life :)

Today was a strange day.

Well I caught Prometheus again and this time it made a lot more sense. And today my little nails are all red and they look very delicious hahah I love them. Also tonight is the first Thursday I've been sober in 3 weeks, but I truly wished I wasn't.

What a lucky tattoo -- I'm your owner and I'm jealous of you. 

Also I'm into the last season of The Nanny and I cried at 3 parts of one single episode. The 1st was when Mr. Sheffield told Fran he loves her, the 2nd was when he talked to his widow lovingly about Fran, and the 3rd when he finally proposed to Fran. Mark of a good show, it draws tears as much as laughter.

The loveliest quote I've ever had the pleasure of reading:

"We had one of those almost collisions complete strangers have. We stopped and stood there so as not to collide. It happened so fast, barely time to react. Still there was time. It happened in an instant yet time stopped all together. 10:00 AM on April 2nd. ‘Excuse me,’ and like that, our paths diverged. What an intense brief moment in life. I can still recall the color of your hoodie, the color of your gloves, your cup of coffee, the fact you weren’t wearing a jacket, the streetwise seller, and the sun before the rain."
— Sophia Blackall, Missed Connections

I'm going to start a reading list and finish it soon. Hello my therapy.

Hello world.

Because hazel's house has become my 2nd abode too, I spent my day off school with her and not swimming because the stupid woman was too lazy. Re-picked up the guitar, been meaning too but never found a teacher so yay happy girl!

Looks good ah but I barely learnt 2 songs yet hahah.

We have identical guitars! Heh I'm gonna go home and re-string mine then glam it up, looks so awfully plain. And maybe in due time we could finally jam together AHHH MY WISHLIST OF THE YEAR.

My reds.

Happy girls!

Headed over to zirca afterwards, was pissed and lost on the way there (thank you choa chu kang for being further away than fucking malaysia) and somehow managed to bump into guohao and sheila's friends gave me a ride so thank you all!

Zirca and rebel were really only alright, caught up with jevis at least! Night was pretty tame, cabbed home and stayed on the phone with hazel all the way home, silly girl was listening to all my atrocious complaints awww I love her.

Lied on my bed the most sober I've ever been in the mid-week of this whole month. And I never realised how much I hated being sober. And how quickly and painfully my thoughts form when I'm not under alcohol.

Being sober is a torture like no other.

This will be a long, wordy post.

I've been on a very vulgar-free streak but ohhh this morning my perfect combo got ruined thanks to a quick, forgetful text message. Let me get this clear as if it's not fucking in your face already.

I'M THE BEST DAMNED FRIEND YOU CAN FIND IN THIS UNIVERSE.

Do you know why? Because I believe fanatically in loyalty. Loyalty to your friends, your family, people who mean something to you, and of all, loyal to people who were there for you, just once is enough.

Which is why friends and cousins can cut me off at random periods of time and when they come back, I am the one instead who desperately and quickly tries to pull back the broken bridges Time has happily ravaged through.

No effort on your side girls. Just come into my life and make a small effort to stay and I'll be there for you in a heartbeat.

A friend told me today that you only need one best friend, and I think my one best friend is really Hazel.

The only one who actually reciprocates and genuinely cares when I get into the constant trouble I have. The only one I'd probably do a quick jail term for for say, burning the face of whoever dares to disrespect her in the future.

It gets more and more clear that into the slower days of my 19 years, I'm lording my friends over everyone. I could cancel on anyone but family for them. My guy friends and boyfriends especially. I love you all equally but they are really my oxygen.

On one hand I'd name Hazel, Htate, Yinghui, Syahirah and Siewsia as people I'd really give the world for. And I wish with all of my heart that I had every single one of the rest of my girls back.

I'm too lazy to go on.

Also:

“I love no one but you, I have discovered, but you are far away and I am here alone. Then this is my life and maybe, however unlikely, I’ll find my way back there. Or maybe, one day, I’ll settle for second best. And on that same day, hell will freeze over, the sun will burn out and the stars will fall from the sky.” — Lemony Snicket

Following a book-spiration tumblr is Decision of the Year 2012.

Renewed love for my crop tees and tiny shorts.

Sunday was spent with the most adorable little thing in the world.

He drooled on me and I made him fly like a G6 and I forgot he can't sit down again and plopped him on the bed and he lolled over again AHHH YOU PRECIOUS THING. Also he made a lot of cute baby talk you precious precious thing.

And watching Spiderman with my family! It was a really good show except that the uncle died twice. Also if I ever had a superhero boyfriend, I'll be damned if I ever let him go. Also I'm now very receptive to spider bites, come at me bro!

Today was an appointment at the strangest place in the world.

I realize reliving these incidents no longer anger me. I wouldn't say it's a hopelessness I feel. More like a resolution. That everyone who ever did anything wrong to me will one day see my rise. And I will be happier than anyone of them will ever be.

My 2 front teeth are proof I'm a bunny hahah.

I PASSED PROGRAMMING HALLELUJAH AND I GOT 75% FOR EM3A IT'S A WORLD GONE MAD.

So to celebrate it was Kbox with the girls and Rebel tonight!

7 years of friendship with 2 of the strangest girls in Kranji back then hahah.

And this is me and Hazel whoring it out hahah:

And this is my newest ink!:

Hazel is a shit photographer hahah.

Had a goodnight and rushed off to prepare the house for Belinda and she came along in a little bit. Then we turned our wardrobe upside down and she was having fun picking my stuff for me to wear hahaha so cute.

Cabbed over late and the night was pretty bad at first and I was really upset things might go south so I tried to maintain a happy upkeep and things got crazy better after alcohol and Arena hahaha.

Rebel was so disappointing I can't begin to cry about it, only Bel and Hazel know my woes hahah. But it was such a kickass night hahah I remember distinctly laying in bed and saying god bless Arena hahah.

To the night where I was a one-time Italy fan:

WE LOOK SO PRETTY HAHAHAH.