Friday, October 17, 2014

To 19 year old Nicole,

Did you expect the life you have today?

2012 was a bad year for us. It was a mess of bad decisions and misplaced priorities. We lost many people and never thought we can one day get on our feet again. If I had to choose, I would say 2012 was a life-changing year for both of us, don't you think?

It was the year you lost your best friend, your closest childhood friend and a man you once thought the world of. It was the year you realize some decisions can never be truly reversed and that not every effort returns results.

2012 was a year of darkness and pain and frankly, from the way I saw it, I truly believed that I would never be happy again, that I will never amount to anything worthwhile.

And yet here we are, 2 years on.



You finally got the job you dreamed of since you were 6- to write for a newspaper. As if that's not already the silver lining on your every cloud, you are also the web content editor, a position you envied in your old happy days at TheSmartLocal.

Work wise, it worked out beautifully, didn't it? You are writing for a living and loving what you do. In fact, this is a Saturday and you are still browsing Weekender, wondering how else you can try to boost its readership.

But everything else.. I don't know.

Monday, October 6, 2014





I am scared to read I wrote this for you any further. I am reading "on love" and I have become so cynical that every line in it makes me want to throw up. I headed over to "on loss" and suddenly everything is top notch and heartachingly perfect again.

What a funny world it is.

Sunday, October 5, 2014








Took me long enough to realize that holy shit my cousin is queen of photography.